How long has this been?

Fun times at work?

I just don’t care anymore, about work that is.

“Be kind; everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle”

 

That’s some good stuff there.

i know it's been too long. maybe this will get me back on track.

jono and i hit up an annual toyota get together down in long beach. we then hit lucky baldwins where i was a big pussy and had finish my beer.

on a brighter note, sunshine passed her boards!!!!!! woo hooo!!!!!

i was pleasantly surprised with a 6 pack of chili beer. so cold, and yet so spicy. i think it is something everyone should experience, but i'm kinda worried about my cravings for it. it just isn't natural.

happy new year!!!!

hey y'all,

another year has passed by so incredibly quickly. let's all take a couple of seconds to reflect on how incredibly lucky we are to be where we're at right now. it hasn't always been easy, but we just keep on truckin'. thanks to all of you who've held me up in the past, just give me a call if you need some support. my house is always open to those who i call friend.

take care,
brian

sorry not to keep you informed as of my routines. today, i got to celebrate 7 years of sunshine and I. hit up staples last weekend to celebrate 26 years of jono. looks like thanksgiving will be plenty busy around here.

ever feel like you're just holding on by your fingernails? like all it's gonna take is the tiniest of birds to land on you to make you lose your grip? wha? me? never!!!

i was supposed to have been leaving for china on tuesday. supposed to. but the budget got cut. stupid business world. it would be nice to be financially independent. not need to work, but just have enough to scrape by. that would be great. oh well, another day, another dollar.

just to keep us on our toes, our company laid off 70 people in Md. it wouldn't be of too much concern to me, however the reasoning behind the layoffs were the same as our division is facing, only in a much more severe way. it seems inevitable that we will be seeing our workforce cut also. i need to win the lottery.

went to the cemetary today. that's always a bummer. i'm attempting to be productive, but it's not going as planned. screw it, it's miller time.

yah yah yah, you've all heard it before. work is hell. what else is new. tomorrow is the anniversary of the saddest day of my life. it's been 8 years and i still hurt every day. when i think about all the little shit i used to get annoyed at and all the other inconsequential b.s.... i don't know. i just wish i thought about it a little more or did more or let him know how i felt more. i realized (after the fact) that there's a lot more important things to worry about than the piddly stuff. if you get annoyed or angry...think... is this really worth it? is this the best way to spend my time? just my thoughts.

2 months... okay, here's the short story version:

a man goes to alaska and sees way way more nature than a kid from the ghetto should ever see.
same man gets back to work and wishes the building would've burnt down in his absence.
same man gets reamed by bosses.
same man drinks like crazy on the 4th while doing the traditional barbeque and ghetto fireworks
same man gets new corolla.
same man gets old corolla broken into.
same man trying to find a way to retire without having to listen to people tell him how unethical his plans are. they'd work, damnit!!!

so there you go. now we're all caught up with each other. let's not let this happen too much.

i'm a headin' to a weddin' this weekend. i have a feeling that all will not go so smoothly and my name will be screamed more than once. too bad it won't be in the heat of passion, just the heat of temecula. i gotta be on good behavior this weekend. i was on good behavior last weekend, by the way. i only had one beer all weekend long, and it came monday night.

here's to the proposed 9/80 work schedule proposed at work... hussah!!!

I saw a trailer for a made for tv movie with  luke perry (sp?) called windfall. It seems to be about what happens when someone gets rich really fast. Like $20M, lottery. Seems like a whole buncha crap goes down with lost relatives, paternity suits, etc. I’d just hide for a while. When I finally decide to come out of my gold plated hole, I’ll start to consider how best to protect myself, those I care about, and the pile of pennies that will be in my basement, 2billion pennies……

I was just thinking about how people (myself included) have put down hybrid cars. True, if gas mileage was your only concern, you are kidding yourself and should go by a Corolla. However, if you look at the hybrids as powertrain options, you wouldn’t care so much about the payback period. When was the last time anyone looked at the payback period for a sunroof or leather seats. Buy a hybrid for the silent running and nail some pedestrians talking on their cell phones. Heads up!!!

the weekend was kick ass!!! beer combined with pizza, failure of the (former) hometown team, etc. all make for great times. sunday was a playday. the OK sister in-law came down on sunday for the nephew's bday. i'm an uncle by marriage donchaknow. this weekend looks like a mini vegas vacation. i think i'll try the sports book and blow a wad of cash.

people at work think i'm "unique". i just hope that means "employable". looks like i'll be enjoying the weekend alone with the mutts. it's cool. nothing like a beer for breakfast to make the day go by faster.

same story here as always, too much crap, too little time. if only someone would get off their asses and devise a way for me to get more hours into my day.

corolla still lives on. damn thing won't die. looks like the honda fit is going to be the most likely replacement for the silver bullet, however the new corolla and xa are also in contention.

first, congrats to my good friend and his purchase of his first car. happy for you man, you got the car you've been searching for.

hey, what do you know? i was right about the obscene amounts of alcohol consumed last weekend. everything was there: alcohol, women and animals. good times as always. i came out good on the bday front. i got a couple of shirts, fat pussy, and tools to screw. ha!

we lost a couple of guys in our department over the last few weeks. keeps you on your toes. depressing. on the other hand, tahoe was fun. i feel that for my next conveyance, i would like a form of forced induction. sure, the power and weight savings are nice, but i'm in it for the passing power at higher elevations. hey, this weekend looks like a lot of drinking and eating, can't wait

i'm getting lazy to think. below you will find lyrics to a song i'm going to post in my cubicle at work. it pretty much summarizes how this past week has been here.

Yeah the big boss man likes to crack that whip
I ain't nothin' but a number on his time card slip
Gave him 40 hours and a piece of my soul
Puts me somewhere at the bottom of his totem pole
Hell, I don't even think he knows my name

Hey, all week long
I'm a real nobody
But, I just punched out
And it's paycheck Friday
The weekend's here
Good God Almighty
Gonna get drunk and be somebody

ever notice how a car can have a personality? i have a friend whose car would always throw a fit whenever he looked at another car. always made him pay out the ass whenever he did that. then one day she broke it off forever. we all know he’ll never have her back again, but at least he can try a good looking cousin of hers. b!tch.

 

with the silver bullet, it seems to be a different kind of relationship. she’s more like beaten wife. whenever she starts talkin’ back, i let her know that there are more fish in the sea. then she quits her squealin’ and starts behaving. “he hurts me because he loves me”

 

now watch, she’ll have come to senses and left me when i get home.

ever notice how some of the forwarded emails are actually funny? i  think that they keep on getting forwarded just because they hold some sort of truth that everyone can connect to. below is an email that was/is being sent around my company. if you ever get the chance to work for a large corporation, you’ll see why this is so funny and yet quite depressing.

 

Subject: Management American Style

A Japanese company and an American company decided to have a canoe race on the Missouri  River. Both teams practiced long and hard to reach their peak performance before the race. On the big day, the Japanese won by a mile.
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The Americans, very discouraged and depressed, decided to investigate the reason for the crushing defeat. A management team made up of senior management was formed to investigate and recommend appropriate action.
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> Their conclusion was the Japanese had 8 people rowing and 1 person steering, while the American team had 8 people steering and 1 person rowing. So American management hired a consulting company and paid them a large amount of money for a second opinion. They advised that too many people were steering the boat, while not enough people were rowing.
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To prevent another loss to the Japanese, the rowing team’s management structure was totally reorganized to 4 steering supervisors, 3 areas steering superintendents and 1 assistant superintendent steering manager.

 

They also implemented a new performance system that would give the 1 person rowing the boat greater incentive to work harder. It was called the "Rowing Team Quality First Program", with meetings, dinners and free pens for the rower. There was discussion of getting new paddles, canoes and other equipment, extra vacation days for practices and bonuses.
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> The next year the Japanese won by two miles.  Humiliated, the American management laid off the rower for poor performance, halted development of a new canoe, sold the paddles, and canceled all capital investments for new equipment.
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> The money saved was distributed to the Senior Executives as bonuses and the next year's racing team was outsourced to India.

 

it’s finals week folks!! good luck to those who suffer the most right now. friday arrives as corned beef and cabbage day. green beer may be on tap, but it actually scares me a bit. maybe we’ll just keep it irish and drink whiskey with everything.

so how goes it in the real world? i feel like creating a game called “cubicle madness”. it’s very similar to a baseball game where the beach balls get tossed around. maybe you’ll have to attach a note and it’ll be like madlibs, with everyone grabbing a noun or verb and putting it into their passage. it really gets quiet and boring here.

hey y’all. just wanted to wish a happy b-day to Mr. Konishi. good times. weiland’s was pretty kick ass. $2.50 beer and some nice appetizers. i’m a bit surprised i don’t go there more often.

 

the week before, i headed down to the HB and almost beat up a few teeny boppers asking for cigarettes. then we visited with the island couple and had a few.

 

i miss golf. and shooting. i think it’s just the launching of projectiles that attracts me so much to those activities.

the blog has been slow. my apologies. time just doesn’t seem to be on my side anymore. we got a new puppy. lana is her name. i will post some pics later, but until then, come down and say hi.

it was a good weekend. avenue q = adult sesame street. it posed a lot of good questions, like “what do you do with a BA in english?” if you thought that regular crab legs were good, try some real king crab. the big kind you see on discovery channel. I’m just glad that my Christmas present didn’t get lost.

damn it was hard to get out of bed this morning. it had to be because of that damned leap second. my theory is that gravity increased due the slower rotation of the earth, thereby decreasing the centripetal force our bodies feel slinging us towards outer space. there would be an update on Christmas and new years, but every one who reads this site was there, till late. very late. like 4am late. all you need to know is that i came away with a big ass flashlight and an erector set.

this weekend was just chock full of giddiness. i got to go to shopping for most of saturday. it was cool, but it just made me realize that it isn’t age that makes you old, it’s responsibility. let’s see what was on the list: pots & pans, nightstands, blood pressure monitors, Christmas gifts for friends, a griddle, and bakeware.

 

on sunday, we went to my mom’s office party. i particularly enjoyed the open bar. there were a bunch of teenage girls wearing very little moving their bodies around the dance floor. ahh, the holidays. apparently my friend’s old company was having their party at the same place that night. it seemed like a real downer. on the flip side, my mom won a coffee maker, something she’s been wanting for a while now.

 

yesterday, i saw my old boss at the local food court. normally i would have thought nothing of it, but i was with a co-worker talking (loudly) about how crappy my old job was. it seems like they’re not getting a bonus this year, which sucks because the people who work their asses off have nothing to do with lower sales. sounds like another industry we all love.

it's been an interesting week here at work. on monday we had a meeting where we were supposed to vent about our work environment anonymously. to be completely honest with you, i'm not all that disgruntled here. to my surprise though, some of the quietest people here were the most vocal. just goes to show, it really is always the quiet ones.

 

today is when we get the fallout. we made our list of demands and we'll get to see what gets the axe and what stays put. man, i sure do hope we get that blimp ride.

 

i took the day off yesterday, someone else needed more than my boss did. all turned out well, but it seemed like i needed someone more than they needed me.

 

well, it seems as though the Christmas season has come and smacked me upside the head. i did very little in helping  a new sister move into her new house. now i kinda want a chandelier in my laundry room too. sunday was a busy day of walking the dog, washing the dog, and drying the dog. good dog. learned also that it is a horrible idea to barbeque when your favorite team is tied and going into overtime. back to the daily grindstone. at least there’s no finals for me!!

must win lottery. need to sleep earlier. that’s what i’d buy, a nap.

ok, so it's been a while...

well, a month is long time between posts, so i may have to break this up...

thursday before wedding:
had rehearsal at mission inn (riverside). everybody was late. traffic sucked. bride and groom = late. hate traffic. thrilled to see family on dad's side. rehearsal dinner (redlands). food took a long time. good times though meeting and greeting everybody. christine's place (loma linda). groomsmen try on tuxes, everyone looks good. thanks to all for helping. everybody goes home late.

friday before wedding:
everybody teases me at work. boss lets me go home early. i head to alhambra. have everyone meet there to have vietnamese ceremony. learning how to make rounds and greet everybody. thanks to all again for spending precious time with us. best man helps me out by driving to monrovia at 10:30 to drop off explorer. after drama with family from france and seating charts. go to sleep at 3:00 on the couch.

saturday, wedding:
wake up at six o'clock. shower and shave, done by seven. get a call from future wife that photographer doesn't want to show up. he wants to send assistants. i get pissed. i don't need this on my wedding day. let him know that if he doesn't show up, the internal revenue service will be informed about his all cash business. get a phone call at 7:15 that he will be at our wedding, how sweet of him. my guys show up at around 8:30. i meet the lovely michelle(sp?). hmm...how'd he do that? we're off and my best man helps me find the wayward groomsman. man that avalon hauls ass. we arrive in redlands without a hitch.

so many damn photographers. surprised to see half of little saigon at my future sister-in-law's house. have no idea what is going on because not a word of english was spoken for over an hour. man, i am good a following someone's lead. apparently it went well enough that a bunch of vietnamese people said i convinced them i knew what i was doing. ha!

after two bites to eat (literally), we are off to the chapel. there is a caravan of 5 cars heading to the freeway. michelle takes a picture of the bride and groom in the car. begin to think she is cool. speed up past the bridal party and arrive at the chapel a few minutes late. am i going to greet guests in front? hell no! hot as hell and i sweat more than michael jackson at a kindergarten play.

moms were nervous. no hug from the mother in law. scurried back to the hiding room and made our entrance. the musicians were fabulous. nothing could have prepared me for the entrance that the bride made. it was a good ceremony, a bit long with a few twists, but was wonderful nonetheless. a huge thanks for the best man for finding the marriage license and hanging with us while we took pictures afterwards.

reception. 4:30pm. used our peeps and put them to work. we had people grabbing flowers, setting up the hall, getting people in order. good times. spent the official first hour doing the obligatory meet and greet. it was cool to see a bunch of people at the reception. got called to enter hall. walked in. from then on, it was totally out of our control. highlight of the evening: band leader in red sequin outfit. sucks that he had just as hard a time with his vietnamese as with his english. at least proud mary and hotel california rocked the house. we made the rounds once again to pick up our envelopes, and then it was time for the speeches.

john's speech came from out of the blue. i was quite nervous as to what he would say, as he has a whole lotta dirt on me. i was surprised and quite touched with what he said though. i couldn't write it as well as he said it. thanks for the love jono.

then rina came up and gave her's. it was cool how she was able to connect with christine and show how and why she was the maid of honor. thanks for the advice there.

well, the night closed, everybody changed, everybody cleaned up, i gathered outfits. overall, i thought it was a great day, everything went much more smoothly than i had planned. thanks to all of you who made it possible. you know you had good wedding when the best man goes home without his pants.

 

well, i decided to try carpooling with someone at work. only been two days, but have yet to see major changes in drive times. really seems like the major benefit here will be paying for gas and tolls only half the time. save me a couple of bucks, and i’ll need every last penny of it. hope the weekend went well for everyone. got me the 30gb ipod, maybe i’ll use it with that new stereo i installed. can’t wait for beer, it’s been way too long. i gotta get on this whole blogging thing again.

another friday and i haven’t been escorted out of the building. a good week if you put it into perspective.

hey everybody! i hope y’all had a good weekend. for me, this weekend was devoted to friends and family. happy b’day to the both of you. saturday consisted of hanging with friends and downing a few drinks. sunday consisted of hanging with friends and downing a few drinks. good times had by all. it was good to catch up with old friends and meet some new good people. to the best man, good luck on your new venture. i hope it all goes well. back to the grindstone i go.

apparently i’m o+. the universal donor is o-. hmm, maybe i should start keeping my blood for myself…but what about the juice and cookies?

i feel like doing more blogging. it’s just a bit tough when it gets so hectic at work.  i find it funny that I only get to see my new backyard on weekends.

happy 70th dad. i've been missing you.

sad news. there’s a guy at my office who’s been with the company for 40 years. he was supposed to retire next week. he died saturday. it’s better where he’s at now, probably the best retirement ever.

i've been busy, sue me. i'll have the wedding post up soon, promise. then i'll get into the house post, the moving post, the work post and the almost daily posting. get off my ass already!!!

so hard sleeping. i know i keep saying this, but i can't wait till everything settles down. has anyone heard anything about the university of redlands and how the mba program is? i want more degrees, but i just hate the work and commitment involved. online classes should be just as good as "real" classes. shooting sounds fun right now.

i haven't been posting as much simply because i feel like no one really cares. the weekend was fun, drank my brains out, that's the fun part. the feeling like crap, not so much. on tuesday i satisfied my craving for in-n-out, damn harold and kumar. oh yeah, sorry 'bout that noise. you'll have your own bedroom in just a little bit, but you'll have to work for it. i feel like doing something stoopid. like hitting hard boiled eggs with sir bonkers. on a work related note, i'm no longer being treated like the new guy. it's cool that people will actually acknowledge my existence, however every time they do, i get more work. oh, the new slim piggin's in redlands is a bit of a ripoff, but hopefully the prices will go down as they start to realize how much money they are hemorrhaging. on that note, have a great weekend.

so much work. so tired. will drink this weekend. must drink to settle down. brian tired. i'm starting to get responsibility at work. still wierd that people consider me their boss. business cards haven't come in yet. damnit, i want free food.

my mom's sister from vietnam came down to stay with her for the next couple of months. nice lady. knowing that she doesn't have much money, it was incredible how many gifts she brought with her. i don't know if she even brought any clothes. i hope i can return the favor to her, somehow.

on a depressing note, i saw a picture of my parent's wedding, and realized that only one person was left of the four in the picture.

damn, there must be an aarp convention today because it seemed like all of leisure world was out on the 5.

hit up the sushi place next to vons in santa margarita last night. super authentic for a sushi next to vons in santa margarita. the chefs, kevin and richard, were super nice. we all ended up doing rounds of soju and beer after closing. will definitely have to go back

the weekend was fun. productive. i like sleeping. it's amazing how good diet squirt and pinapple-orange juice can be. i should probably start looking seriously into various mba programs in southern california. from what i've been hearing, the "pay for play" programs should be only considered as a last resort. hello gmat. whatever happened to the civil ceremonies and the reception in the waiting room of the maternity ward? oh well, sometimes i feel like i'd have more success cooking rice on the barbeque than getting my world to behave the way i'd like it to.

i hope that in a couple of months i will be able to do nothing on weekends. i can't wait to work on the cars again. there's a bunch of crap that needs to get done, but it'll have to wait. must find kegerator. dogs rock, gotta find a way to get buddy in the outdoor games.

perhaps one of the longest weekends ever. it was filled with productivity. i practiced renting a u-haul. i tried tennis. moved furniture. ate a large portion of a cow. sucked at golf. cleaned. barbequed. caught up with old friends. watched illegal activities. a good weekend.

found out molly was actually sick. my mom took her to the vet get treated. will go home to check on my dog.

here's a few things that have been bouncing around in my mind:

- i want a fast car. low 5's being the slowest acceptable.
- no matter how bad life has treated me, and it's been bad at times, things always get better.
- i never want to forget where i came from.
- it's good to be curious
- i need more sleep

i just saw a show on tlc(the learning channel) called "the boy whose skin fell off." this is a true reality check for when you think life has kicked you in the sack. i'm glad i can breath without mind-numbing pain.

one day

that's over 150 atmospheres of pressure.

how many atmospheres can the ship withstand?

considering it's a spaceship, i would say anywhere between 0 and 1.

bring it bitches. the thermostat is in. it works mighty well too. it's been a long time coming, about 2 years at least. it felt good to work on the car again. put some grease under my fingers and testosterone in my veins. now for the twin charging.

i got caught up with some good friends tonight. it sucks being so far away all the time. i do wish there was some more time for beers.

well, this'll be the last blog till sunday night. have a good weekend. i'll try to remember mine.

howdy howdy howdy. i'm going away this weekend. far away. mentally and physically. let's just hope that it's relaxing. i have no other expectations, except for a bucket o'clams. i'm watching billiards right now. makes me want my own table. that'll be a bitch to get into the loft. i wonder how many beers that'll cost me?

this was too busy of a weekend. i can't wait for the graduation happening in two years. i think i'll start buying stocks in the air horn industry because i'm probably going to double their earnings. i need to get a welder, sheet metal, and a bunch of steel rods. good times to come.

wow, my first call from a head hunter. word gets around quick about who you are and what you do. cool, campbell's soup wants me.

hey all you happy people. it was a fun weekend of dealing with my mom. hey, at least i got my holster for the .22. i've been doing a bunch of random thinking recently. i was worried that i was getting too concerned with getting more stuff for myself, like a new car. i figured it was just that i wanted to be able to enjoy some of what i'm working for. i guess that's one reason why i'm excited about the house.

it's been a busy year. i can't wait for everything to settle down. i miss being able to have nothing on my mind.

i've always had a lot of respect for teachers. it's their job to convince a bunch of know-it-alls that they don't and get them to absorb what they didn't think even existed.

a quote to summarize the weekend: " i don't know where you magic pixies came from, but i sure like your pixie drink"

i find it funny that the message mtv's boiling point sends out is that we should all happily take the crap the world hands us. don't bother standing up for yourself, that way you may win for meekness.

it's nice not burning in the sun after 3 minutes. it was nice to see how many burned crackers there were at work today. ozone layer is overrated. i need to be more productive.

i hope that i don't take anything/anyone for granted. life is way too short to think that the world is forever unchanging. sorry for the sermon, but this weekend was a nice kick to the groin in that respect.

i saw an slr mclaren on the road today. i gotta win a big lottery to get that car. but then what would i retire in considering that car costs as much as the house. damn, i really gotta win the lottery. maybe i could get good at golf and start kicking vijay's ass. lotto or golf tournaments... who needs a 401k? i need to finish off that 30pack of miller lite. with only 96 calories, it's way better for you than the 140 calorie coca-cola. wierd how you can drink more beer than soda.

this weekend was quite possibly the most unproductive in quite a while. it's exactly what i needed. it was all i thought it could be, and more. take y'all, it's looking like a doosey of a week.

i hope i don't spend all my time trying to avoid being a partypoker.com commercial after i'm married.

i was this (holding thumb and index finger 1/8" apart) to buying a new corolla this morning. but then i got an invite to walk around the radiant warmth of the i.e. how could i pass that up? with the nice breeze, the wind chill was only around 108. i would tell you about my week, but a trip to costco for deodorant and dishwashing fluid are all i really have to report. other than that, work work work. i like it though. i don't mind the longer hours because i know the work i'm doing is actually being appreciated by someone. oh yeah, yesterday was my first design review. i'm glad to report that i'm employed for just a little while longer. next week, i get to design a new quick connect for copper tubing. whoa... settle down there people.

if you're curious about the wedding, so am i. apparently, the house may be done on the 19th of august, just a rumor i heard. looks like that is going to be a very, very, very busy weekend.

so sorry for keeping you in suspense. if you're wondering about the show, it was cool. i like the fact that the only i had to pay for was the gas to the airport. what really sucks is that i was on the clock the whole time. there was no drinking, gambling, half naked women strutting around. i actually forgot i was in vegas. oh well. hey, let me know what you think of a kia rio, for $5k of course. ok, i know it sucks, but hard to beat a new car for that price. who needs a/c? i'm excited about this whole marriage/house/new life thing. i think it'll be cool to actually have guest rooms instead of guest couches for those who get too drunk to drive home. i'm also excited about having my own garage to mess up my cars in. we have the tools...

tomorrow, i am off to the las vegas convention center for the ever so exciting kbis show. practice for the avn's i guess. took advantage of my employee discount for the first time. nice to get $1400 worth of stuff for $350. i'll keep it short. lemmiwinks rocks.

hey y'all. looks like 8/20 is the big day. i say vegas. quick, simple, with all the sinning your heart could desire. what could be better than a reception at the pai gow table?

i would like to thank all of you that voted in the car poll. looks like i'll be taking up one of the suggestions. can you guess which one?

what ever happened to insomniac?

hitting up the comedy club on saturday. gotta love that two drink minimum. i must say though, people funnier with a couple of pina coladas in your belly. apparently i'll be missing out on free alcohol tonight... what have i become?

i saw a program on tv about "killer" volcanos. because most large volcanos got that big by being pussies. i hate stupid people, and all the programs that are directed to provoke their idiocy. never trust anyone who spells the plural possessive as a conjunction. wow, i have a lot of questions in this post, don't i?

i went home yesterday to let my mom know all about what's been going on down in the oc and ie. it went over a lot more smoothly than what i expected. it looks like we are a go for all that jazz happening late summer. it was mucho funno to play with wondermutt. she still rocks.

i'm still missing my dad.

i noticed the chairs here at work. they're wierd. they are office chairs with a steel frame and fabric mesh stretched around it. it's like a hammock for my ass.

have a great weekend. i will, driving the corolla, and really messing up the property values in rsm. sunday should be fun ruining brand new ml's.

it really has been a while since i posted. looks like this whole settling down thing is a go. july or december. i gotta get rich real quick now. how hard could it be to create a new operating system?
looks like there's gonna be some drama in alhambra this week.

i haven't done a damn thing this weekend, it's nice. it is kinda bad when you are doing nothing and you know, know deep down, that you could be doing something. a chili beer and martini later, it just doesn't really matter now does it?

i've learned how to use the b-spec mode in gt4. wow. it's nice reaping the rewards of someone else's work.

i am a year closer to retiring. yee-haw. i've learned a lot in the past twenty-five years. what all of it was...not so sure. i'm grateful that i didn't have to drink alone on saturday. it was a real pick me up, even though chili beer and jello will kill a mere mortal.

some of you are probably wondering how work is. so far, i have found out why dilbert is so popular. the place is exceedingly corporate. let's see if i can't bring about more smiles and laughs to the place without getting myself fired. i know that i can act the part of professional, but i hope that i will be able to separate work from home. i'm sure a 1.5 hour drive will help clear any of those thoughts.

i've been going to sleep very late lately. it's probably because of my lack of physical activity. i decided to work out (again) to see if that helps the sleep situation. if that doesn't work, i'm sure substituting bigfoot for gatorade/water should.

well, once again it's been a while. i actually started my new job yesterday as they had issues clearing up my background check. it seems pretty cool, but very very very much like your standard stereotype of a corporate environment. it will take some getting used to, but i hope it all turns out well.

at 12:04 tonight, i'm drinking.

hey y'all. today is my last day at knight. then i go drinking. i've had a good run here, but it's time to move on to bigger and better things(hopefully). i think the next couple of weekends are going to be filled with a lot of deep contemplation and heavy drinking. y'all keep in touch now.

i'm watching a show on animal planet and there's a dog that's almost exactly like molly. now i'm sad and i miss my dog. molly rocks.

this was a good weekend. it was full of relaxing, playing, being serious, being stoopid. i really think the best weekends are the ones that take you away from your m-f life and transport you to where you dream about during the week.

it's amazing how difficult it is to concentrate when no one cares about what you do. looks like there may be a house cleaning real soon. the funny thing is it will be initiated by the proletariat, not the fat cats upstairs.

word of my resignation has spread throughout the company. the comments range from congratulatory remarks to offers of sexual favors to keep me at the company. as flattering as it is, my mind is made up. it's funny how only now do they seem to keep me high esteem. almost like you don't know what you have until it's gone (or soon to be).

never a day without drama. my last day at knight is april 1. april 4, i start a new part of my life with b&d. wish me luck folks.

i was on such a good blogging streak before last week. so much change has been going that all the little things got pushed to the back burner. well, as an update, i'm buying a house, as well as changing jobs. now that we have all that little stuff out of the way, i want ice cream.

looks like it's going to be an interesting next couple of weeks

this was an interesting weekend. i may end up purchasing a house soon, if all the cards line up right. it is only by the grace of two very special people that i am able to even consider a house. i kinda wish i couldn't afford a house sometimes. i think a day of shooting, fishing, and golfing would boost testosterone levels. maybe all three at once???

went house hunting today. it looks like we may actually be getting a house soon. wierd huh? oh well. it may be far from work, but i will hopefully be trading depression for exhaustion. i think i may actually like it better in the i.e. than the o.c. i know the area better. the people are more real and less rich. and hey, heroes (t. phillips) won't seem as far. even though it isn't where i was raised, it believe i feel more at home along the 10 freeway than the 5.

i keep thinking about homer sitting in his hammock and singing "you put the beer in the coconut and throw the can away"

i'm lacking a lot of drive recently. it looks like the corolla is fixing itself again. i started it the other day and no lights came on, it ran fine, i'm thoroughly confused.

well, i got a bike. not one of those with those newfangled "motors". all me baby. all i know is that walking uphill is much more enjoyable. the corolla is dead until i can get it to a repair shop without being hassled by the man. there's so much to do and so little motivation. i need to drink more.

it looks like i'm working this weekend. calling in sick was beneficial though. it's funny how blogging makes me feel like someone might care. was looking at a new gun at turners the other day. i may just have to get myself a .357mag, just for the hell of it.

ahh, the joy of dilbert. they had a comic the other day where dilbert debates whether he should stay miserable where he is or go to a better job where the commute would kill him.

i have the itchin' for some trout and golf

i feel like rambling, so suffer.

it sucks being so far away from everyone and everything you care about. i really do feel like monday monkey living for the weekend. i miss driving along the 10 freeway. no matter where i was along the 10, something good was never more than 1/2 an hour away. it's been home for so long, rsm feels like a temporary living quarters. i miss a lot of stuff.

fishing, shooting, golf, working on cars... all my hobbies. no time for fishing or shooting. golf just ain't the same alone. can't work on cars in apartment complex. that leaves.... well, you see.

time is so very limited nowadays. i was so excited about graduating and having more free time. I was excited about living 10 min from work and having even more free time. i should be more productive, but productive doesn't always mean fulfilling now does it?

looks like the corolla might be on its last legs. the overdrive light was flashing and it was having trouble getting into gear. then, when it got into gear, it only stayed in 2nd. every morning the tranny stays in third on the way to work, then shifts hard into fourth. i really like that car. if it was cruddier, i wouldn't mind getting rid of it, but everything worked just fine. i realized today that the explorer is a good car. just needs to get the suspension fixed, then all will be ok.

this was a long post. if you've read it, thanks for your suffering. after seeing what i wrote, i'm surprised i don't drink a helluva lot more than i do.

sorry i haven't been posting as much as i should. just lets you know how exciting my life is. i usually use this as a way to vent about whats bugging me. i also made a pledge to avoid blogging about work. however, if the only thing that is bugging me is work, and i can't blog about work, then nothing gets blogged. y'all got that?

over the weekend i found out that i am now officially out of grandparents.

it's kinda depressing to think that the only companies that want me are the troubled ones.

a couple of things you should try to experience in life: eating lobster in your underwear and watching the grammys in hd with surround sound. have a good valentine's day (from all the florists and teddy bear manufacturers).

i was doing some thinking today, and i realized that for the last seven months, i have been working every weekday. even though each day goes by slowly, the months have gone by fast. it's easy to see how people who get too involved with work can say that they have wasted their entire lives in the blink of an eye. it's been a good day if you couldn't tell.

superbowl was yesterday. it was a good day of drinking, football, and hanging out. i'm surprised by how few commercials there were. no word from the aqmd. oh well, we'll just have to try harder and smarter next time. i feel like careerbuilder used me as their inspiration for their superbowl adds.

my apologies to you all for not blogging more often. well, we all know how we feel about work. this sunday is the superbowl. hard to get excited about it this year, but i'll just try my best to work up a lather. all cars have been put on the back burner until the housing situation is resolved. i really need to put that thermostat into the corolla. i also really need to win the lottery. i wish i wasn't so tired...

so much drama here at work. it's wierd how people react to gossip. funny how people can make up their mind so quickly about a situation that they are not a part of. good times though. i'm scared to hit up the driving range, it's been a few months and i'm gonna suck.

i passed the evil 8 hour e.i.t. test. hahahaha..... beeeyotches! and, by using my time in school, i can get my p.e. in two years. rock on. beeeyotches!

firefighters are true heroes. they throw themselves into the most dangerous situations imaginable and help those who can't help themselves.

http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/brianmarcin/my_photos

here's some pics for ya. let me know what you think. it's my first real photo album, so if it sucks like this site, too bad.

i worry about my mom sometimes. yes, she gets on my nerves, but show me a mother who doesn't. while i don't want to dote over her, she's on her own for the first time in a long time. i see the effects everytime i head home. it really is sad. everything changed for her so quickly, just like it did for me. she never showed anything but excitement for me. as much as i was excited about my life changing, getting a job and being on my own, she was just as terrified.

i really hate stupid people

so tired at work. busting my balls. will try and update this more often. have to decide where career is going and all of the affected decisions will come later. fun times as always.

tired, oh so tired. jerry orbach reminded me of my dad. i miss him. the new year is off to a good start. i think i'll start updating my resume now that i have 6 months on the books here.

roommate at work is sick, boss across the hall is sick. joy.

"But in my real world things don't always turn out so good, like you wish they would. And in my real world I'm a little messed up and broke, don't you know?"

i've been doing a lot of thinking at work today(busy day). seeing as the new year is a time to look to the year ahead, i decided "screw that" and looked at the past year. i believe i have a pretty good hold of those of you who actually take time to read this site, and i think we've all done good for ourselves this year. the cal state university system is behind us. we have direction and are gainfully employed. there came an end to an era this year. it's cool, we get to start a new one right after.

have a happy new year, let's take this one by storm.

officespace is still the greatest movie ever, even though i haven't watched it in a while. work is much more enjoyable when you just stop caring about what others think about you. cannot wait for the weekend, where it seems fishing or snowboarding is guaranteed. if i get bored, i may test drive cars, just for the hell of it. hey y'all, let's go golfing sometime.

it's been a while. i've been really exhausted recently and this week is no exception. it's only wednesday. damnit, this week will never end. favourite quote from scrubs concerning alcohol - "it makes the tears taste less bitter"

have a great week everyone

merry belated christmas everyone.

yeah yeah yeah, it's been a while once again. search for bigfoot unsuccessful, will try again in spring of next year. i like being away from work. maybe i'll try to continue avoiding it as much as possible. worker's comp? we'll see. i could give more info about my week, but then i'll leave that between myself and my gamblaholic. it's cool, the last second reprieve and optimal cards saved our collective butts. thursday, party, i hope i forget about the week ahead.

50 hour workweeks suck. netflix is really cool. watched italian job last night. mini is looking fun now. they need 4wd. next week, i will be looking for bigfoot in its natural territory. i know where to look because i have spotted bigfoot there before.

as far as i'm aware, a blog is like an online journal. however, i have a feeling that people from work may be looking at this, the comments about work will have to be reeled in. on that note, i really need to catch a fish. maybe next week i'll hit up one of the lakes and try my luck. wish me luck, or go with me.

today was a fun 12 hour workday. let's never speak of it again. i'm glad i got home in time for the end of the game. it was good. leftover ribs were still good as they were on friday. it's amazing how much chaos there can be within stability

ribs were nummy. saturday was my office christmas party. being on a gambling boat made me really want to gamble and fish. if there was only a way to combine the two. went to a wedding tonight, not mine so i didn't really pay attention to much details. looks like this is going to be a busy week.

happy friday folks. tonight is ribs and movies. yee haw. hard to concentrate on work, motivation is slipping fast, just like in that beginning scene of cliffhanger. need to work on exploder sometime before sunday, with the possibility of getting a new set of tires all around.

it's really wierd being out on my own. i haven't really cooked since my dad died, but now it's kinda manditory. now when i do, all i think about is him really. today i had the urge to watch office space. sometimes i feel like peter did, how every day is worse than the next. i miss the times when we were all happy-go-lucky and not so serious about the world around us. fun is so hard to find when all you can see is the problems in your way.

sometimes i feel like i'm losing all the drive i have to do anything. it's wierd how we work just to get by. can't wait for the fun times to come by again. i miss the extra time i used to have. it's easier to see why people "go postal."

so much work, so little caring. didn't fix a damn thing last weekend. it was cool though. i need to hit up the driving range. it's amazing how quickly time flies when you're frustrated with something you need to accomplish. gt3 is fun while drinking. i think i'll try that again tomorrow.
hdtv is on its way.

hope y'all had a good turkey day. mine was cool. woke up at 5:30 and got myself $2 fishing rods. now i just need to rock and roll. i just wish the piers weren't so busy on weekends. looks like the broken cars will need another weekend to get fixed. let's see what the week holds in store for me. have fun at work, i know i won't.

once again, the topic of cars has come up. if you want to know, you can go ahead and ask. sometimes i wonder if all the stress at work is worth it. i wish i was rich, that way i could have more fun. i may try to go fishing in the local lakes. i hate that i have to pay to go fishing nowadays. there's just no time for anything anymore. i am going to fix the thermostat on the corolla this weekend. then, using my amazing skills, along with the ford repair manual, i will fix the explorer and all this car talk will be moot. i hope my degree means something to more people than me. that was a lot of hard work. i got a new surround sound system. its cool. maybe i'll play with that. there's too much frustration with work right now. i'm fat and i'm going to do something about it.

busy week. wish we had more time and money at work to do fun "engineering". i realize that i have some relative job security in that i am the only one there cheap enough and actually understands the concepts of "mechanical engineering." oy, this is really getting frustrating

work is boring and frustrating. i think that next time someone asks me what i do, i'll respond that i work with children. it wouldn't be lying.

corolla is fixing itself. wierd stuff. so now that the car situation is resolved for a bit, i am now moving my attention to home theater and hdtv service. man, the more i make, the more i want to spend.

this week was a good "friends" week. i celebrated my best friend's birthday on wednesday, a day early. in doing so, i was able to find, conquer destroy bigfoot. such a proud day. on friday, went out to celebrate another friend's b-day with the consumption of much lobster. a possible new tradition? saturday, celebrated a co-worker's graduation. i hope he had as much fun as i did. today was a good day of playing and drinking. i wish the weekend never ended.

what up all you crazy peeps. after doing some research, most small cars with the options i want go for around 18k. damn that's pricey. went to bevmo today. nice selection, without the friendly atmosphere of galco's. i think i will go the shooting range soon. bullets are expensive though. bono is an idiot. 1,2,3,14. he never learned to count, but we should still forgive 3rd world debt anyways.

my house 

scion tc. so much good stuff for the money. hard to see if anything else really comes close. i guess once i start spending $300/mo. on the corolla, then that will be the new car in the hypothetical driveway. life is just one big emotional roller coaster. up and down, to and fro...oy, i need some dramamine.

i like being on my own. there's that rogue sense of lawlessness here, i answer to no one but myself. (sinister chuckle) i think i will start working out this week, just like all the weeks before. if i do start, i could imagine my rent going down by $30 bucks a month by using the complex's club. i hope i don't get fired any time soon, it would really suck to have to move back home. seeing my friends more would be fun. universal truth: way to man's heart is through his stomach, though bj's and backrubs could only help.

hey all you happy people, who did ya vote for? that's good. looks like the country will be getting more religion and fewer taxes over the next four years. thank goodness i'm getting too old for the draft. i got my diploma in the mail over the weekend. that makes me feel good about the hard work. still debating on whether i should keep it in my place or my office. hmm... possible next poll subject. i believe the advancement of the internet and it's affect on society parallels the television. initially, those cathode ray tubes were made for scientists and the miliary. then, everyone became addicted and couldn't get away from it. if it sounds familiar, welcome to the new idiot box. it got me too, damnit. at least this is "interactive."

i now am fully enjoying my place. it's nice to have the freedom. i may not have a lot of money to myself, but freedom is better than having money and a leash around your neck. i think i got this poll thing down, but we'll see.

Happy Birthday Dad, I miss you.

if the exploder can hold up, i will drive that after the silver bullet blows up. i'm working on a project that could change the entire face of our company. if it goes bad, i have a feeling i will be the scapegoat. honestly, i don't care, as long as i get a good recommendation. i think i'm taking life way too seriously right now. i miss golf, beer, and $0.33 tacos.

Happy Birthday Grandma.

ok, it's been a week once again. bite me. if people were regular all the time, metamucil would be out of business. not much has happened in the last week. just came to realize that people are still stupid and that testing is the only way to make sure that something will work as advertised. on that note, a co-worker of mine tested (and proved) a hypothesis that steel doors are hard. in proving so, he broke his hand in two places.

i have a conundrum. i love the corolla, aka silver bullet. i have much respect for the exploder. i know that if i only spent the time to fix them, they would be good as new. i also like a bunch of new cars. i keep on seeing new cars all around me, and i feel like i would like one of those warranteed thingies. however, there are so many types, it would probably take me about a year or two to make up my mind. i think i will try to learn how to do polls and see if i can put one up in the next couple of weeks. i should probably take a couple pictures of my cars for posterity's sake.

it's not good to idolize people. it makes one blind to flaws that are evident to everyone else. for those who read this, it's work related. i love all those that i keep close to me.

i just found out that redlands will be getting a beverages & more in early spring. the inland empire just got a bj's and now a bev*mo. wow. how the boonies grow up. it's amazing how people who live in orange county hate the idea of integration. not the math, but the social practice. it's like all the rich kkk members moved to the oc. oh well, it's fun to stir stuff up. looks like i will be on another quest to find bigfoot soon. it's late, i should go to bed now. can't wait to be done with that fe/eit test. then i'll be official.

i wish i wasn't so far from everyone. i worry that my friends think i don't care about them because i don't talk to them as much as i used to be able to. i hope all y'all know that's not true. hanging out with friends is something i have learned to enjoy every moment of. i'm in the mood for some quality beer. i've been stuffing my craw with miller lite way too much recently. not that i have anything against it, but i think a trip to liquorama or galco's is overdue. i think i may have superpowers. the other day i predicted that one of my unemployed friends was going to get a job where puts something in outer space, and i will put something in his cafeteria. while i'm glad that he is going to work at johnson space center in houston, i'm just worried that i won't have the opportunities to advance my career beyond what it is. ok, that's it, off to find where i can get quality drunk.

still hate stupid people. it's amazing how confident people can be about topics they know absolutely nothing about. just because someone can read a description out of a catalog, that does not make them an expert in that field. on a separate note, i want to go fishing. nothing really like that tug of a fish on the end of a pole. sometimes i feel like i need more active hobbies, instead of just reading about my hobbies on the internet.

my apartment is so small, but now with the tv in the bedroom, i don't think i'll be spending too much time in the family/dining room anymore. work blows, but a paycheck is a paycheck. i'm trying to find a way to not pay taxes without going to jail. it's not going so well. must make corolla last forever. if it ever has catastrophic engine failure, you can be sure a v8 will be on its way soon.

televisions are heavy. beer makes me feel like superman.

yeah yeah yeah, it's been a while. so what. brian's been taking care of brian. friday was my mom's b-day. i didn't get her anything, but to be honest, the car should cover my bases for a while. saturday was quite busy. in the morning i took care of my car, and in the evening, i pretended i was a fish. tomorrow i have my first review. i hope i can still afford to blog off my laptop after tomorrow night.

i had such big plans for tonight, but i'm soooo tired. maybe tomorrow will be more productive.

man, i can't wait to eat real solid food again. i miss steak and pork. don't get me wrong, but there's only so much soup/stewed foods a person can eat in a week.

still waiting on getting my teeth back. i hope the tooth fairy hasn't made her rounds yet. today i read an interview with tim mcgraw. i gained much respect for him. he said that over the years he has learned to place family above all else, over work, touring, singing, etc. then, he came back and said that he was lucky to be in a place to say he can put family above all else. here's exactly what he said :
“It’s easy for me to sit back and say you’ve got to put your family first. I’m at a time and in a position in my life when I can say that. I understand that there are guys all over the country, all over the world, who bust their ass and lay in bed at night wishing they can say that. So it’s kind of condescending for me to say it.”

that shows me that he has an understanding what what the common folk are going through. it takes a wise man to say what he said.

i need to be more productive here, but it's just so much more fun doing nothing. i suppose i will eventually get bored of nothing and start wanting to do something... but not for a while.

on friday morning i had four more teeth than i have now. friday night, i got the joy and experience of getting all my wisdom teeth taken out. it took a strong dentist 2.5 hours to yank out four teeth. not a fun night. i have learned that tylenol w/codeine does nothing. where's my vicodin. it hasn't been a fun day. stay tuned for pics of teeth.

today is september 13. 6 years ago today, my father lost his battle with cancer. it's wierd to say that. i sound like a commercial for city of hope. it's amazing how the pain never goes away. i've done better concentrating on other things, but deep down, with everything i do, it always lingers inside. it hurts the most thinking about all the big events in my life that he missed.

i missed him most recently while i was on the road trip to oklahoma. he always used to tell me about driving across the country along route 66. driving along highway 40, you can see route 66 along the side, all the way to texas. i can just imagine if was still alive, talking into the wee hours of the morning about all the sights along the way.

i can always remember going to the cemetery hoping that i could extract some of his wisdom by being there with him. i know that everything we did together helped shape the person i am, but i just wish he could be here to see what i've done. i graduated, found a job, a future wife. i just hope he took the time to watch me from heaven.

haven't been posting because there is nothing to really post about down here. mom is still a bit crazy. like i said, nothing new. i should be getting a review at work soon. hope it's good so i can stay far from home. i miss my drinking/eating contests. i always win here, no matter what. i think i may get my golf clubs this week and go to the range. once stuff starts happening, i'll be sure to let all y'all know.

okay, it's been a while, i know. all moved in here in rsm. John and Christine helped out sooooo much, i don't know if there's enough thank you's in me. we got all settled in here around 4:00 on Friday. after that, i don't remember much. john and i finished 20 bottles of beer, a bottle of champagne, and i think some hypnotiq. i really don't remember. i must have a large liver, i didn't have a headache in the morning. Saturday was a day of errand running, and also going to the hollywood bowl to see john williams and a bunch of geeks with light sabres, aka light up plastic rods from china. when i got there, it reminded me of the bugs bunny cartoon where he gets mad at the conductor. christine's parents came down on sunday and i barbequed again. i've been playing a lot of ps2's GT3. man i love that game. gotta find more money for that stage 3 turbo for my trueno. tomorrow i'm heading out to bakersfield at 5:30am with the VP of engineering and the head of our marketing department. i hope they don't tell me to fetch something and leave me.

watching trampoline gymnastics. yup, just another normal friday night. kinda excited about the move. i really don't mean to pat myself on the back a la mr. perfect, but i'm proud of what i've accomplished so far. i can actually buy stuff for myself and not feel guilty. i'm not rich by any means, but i feel so much more independent. that makes the last 6 years worth it all, the fact that i will be on my own, needing no one else for financial support. don't get me wrong, i'm not going to be a hermit, i still need people in my life, just some more than others. HDTV is coming soon.

been so tired recently. work is all about prototyping. one more week until i'm on my own. i feel like i'm going to be the laziest s.o.b. when i finally move in. we should all be happy that we have what we have. life could always be so much worse than what we make ours out to be.

in the words of a wise, wise man: "get some sleep!!"

busy weekend. i need a vacation again. everything seems so hectic concerning the move. we added another big item on our list. a 47" tv. oh man it's gonna be a busy day.

work sucked on friday. we found out that one of our co-workers died on the way to work that morning. i didn't know her well, but death is never a good subject. it was wierd. i wasn't affected as much as everyone else, so i wasn't sure how to act. when people laughed, i laughed. when people were bummed, i was bummed. it sucks to have to play follow the leader, but that wasn't the day to step on people's toes.

sometimes i think that people are too preoccupied with trivial details. do big stuff first. the little stuff will find their place and time in our lives.

a message to all my friends: i'm sorry that i haven't kept in touch recently. work and the evil commute just seem to drain everything from me. i hope that all of you know how much you mean to me, and that without your friendship life wouldn't be as much fun.

thinking about thinking is for people with too much time on their hands.

ok, just 2.5 weeks to go until full blown bachelorhood. well, sort of. we'll just call it bachelor living. so poor now. i keep making money, but i keep getting deeper and deeper into debt. can't wait for the extra three hours a day to myself. sweet. work is cool, just gotta try not to get fired.

hey y'all, in just three weeks i will be coming to you from my new abode. i miss the adobe car. and phil hartman as well. he rocked. i gotta start getting ready for the move. i'm thankful that rina and her dad are going to let me use their trailer, i'm sure that is really going to help. the closer i get to the move, the tougher the commute becomes. oh well, only three more weeks.

last night john and i went to steven's steakhouse. the ambiance is swanky, but the clientele...much less so, especially with us there. we both ordered the 32 oz. ribeye. oh my. i've never stuffed that much meat down my gullet before. it took us two hours there to finish our meal. that was good stuff. it was fun commenting on the fat chick who ate well into the evening. like john said last night, "the first 1.5lbs was good steak, the rest was a challenge we had to beat." man that hurt.

i've been trying to be philosophical lately, but i don't think it's working out too well. i'm too tired to deal with the ramifications of my lack of enthusiam for ethereal ponderances. after that, i need a drink.

i've updated my company link. now for the exciting world of peristaltic pumps. hey, at least i can use the phrase "tube lube" in everyday conversations and still not be fired for sexual harrassment.

yesterday i omitted a very important part of my day. i called my evaluator at 7:45 in the morning in order to verify if my petition had been processed and also to verify that i graduated. she said she would call me later in the day to tell me about the progress. no calls all day. i left 4 messages for that dirty c*** but no answer. so i call the registrar's office and they tell me to call academic programs. i call academic programs, who claim to have sent it out that day to the dean's office to get more info. i call the dean's office who say they have received nothing, i in turn let them know that i need this petition in by 5:00 to be able to say i graduated in spring. i get the dean's secretary and the big wig lady in the office to start making phone calls. i later find out that lita, the mechanical engineering secretary actually ran to the registrar's and made them process it then and there. and from all of this, i am now an official cal poly grad with bachelor's of science in mechanical engineering. sweetness.

no drinking tonight, i'm falling behind. i will catch up when the 29th comes around. beer on my own couch, how sweet will that be.

less than a month since my last blog. sweetness. i think the people at work may want to keep me. i don't want to get my hopes up, but so far so good. it's still wierd how i make money, but i'm not able to spend it. i'm thinking about not getting cable modem. the laptop is fast enough where dial up isn't too bad. we'll try it, see how it goes. working everyday still sucks. i get to on the production floor tomorrow and assemble chemical dispensing units. oh well, at least i don't have to be in front of the computer all day. work sucks, money's cool. i'm getting drunk tomorrow.

looks like i may have time and energy to blog on weekends. i hope that i have the energy and free time after work everyday. no one really wants to hear about mechanical engineering, so i guess i'll have to start being more exciting after work. if not, then i'm wasting mucho buckos on rent and all of the other associated stuff.

went funiture shopping today. bought a mattress set (queen) and a sofa (the jOHN! couch). as if that was not enough, i also got a duvet cover. i know i have a comforter, duvet....not so sure, but if i got one, its covered, like a hobo on a ham sandwich. i love that phrase, bad as it is. and now, for the piece that takes the cake, i got myself a gas grill. it's got stainless steel all over it, weighs as much as that triceratops crap in jurassic park, and boxed it's still bigger than i am. gonna really need a dolly soon.

i have no idea how i'm going to pay for all this stuff. (lotto) move in day is going to be a toughie. lots o'sweatin' and lots o'drinkin'.

it's kinda funny how life is. over the last couple of months, so many changes have gone on that i'm sure if my head has stopped spinning. when life happens to you, it's easy to see who cares about you and who doesn't. i have good friends, you know who you are.

wow, sorry for the wait all you happy people.

went to san fran. and monterey peninsula with christine for a week. carmel is nice, however it is too stuffy. she got a fix it ticket in san fran. i fixed it. got a job in lake forest. Jr. Mechanical Engineer. Fancy title, huh? All it means is that I get to use Solidworks to fix other people's mistakes. At least I get paid. Bought my mom a Lexus ES330. Fancy shit. Told her that Christine and I are getting married. She threw a fit. Kinda regret getting the car now. For the same price I could have gotten myself an EVO, STI or even a couple of Corollas. Oh well. The drive every day to Lake Forest is killing me. Decided to move to Rancho Santa Margarita, to be forthwith called RSM. Expensive, but it includes just about everything. Apparently the rent also includes membership to a private lake in RSM. I can fish EVERYDAY after work for FREE. Sweet. I get to be poor, relatively. I'll be living in a fancy area and paying for a Lexus, but still be poor. wierd. rice and soy sauce every day. I want it to be a nice bachelor pad, but not sure if any of my friends wants to drive all the way down there to visit. It may be lonely. Oh well, high speed internet and the voices in my head will keep me company. this was a long one. i really need to start doing this more than just monthly. i think i will go exploring next week to find places to hang out around my new crib. wierd thing about RSM, barely any crime. I don't know if i can get used to that. Tip for the wise, 3 hours a day in a car is just plain bad.

ok, here's a long one

i don't remember where i left off last time, but on friday i took my final and finished my project for ece. friday night went to see shrek 2, good stuff.

saturday, woke up early to see john and give him beer bottle lei. after dropping that off i headed to the wood to see lisa and lisa leslie graduate from university of phoenix. went to westminster for food, got back late. worked on finishing labs all night saturday, so i had no sleep for my graduation on sunday.

sunday, hung out with jeffrey during graduation. engineers were so damn rowdy. like freeing caged animals. went to tgifridays after. so much drinking with really good people. for all of you that were there, thanks for coming, i really did appreciate having you there to celebrate with me.

monday, woke up with a headache. had to finish all labs by 5 in the afternoon. headed to school and found out that computer labs closed at 4. skrewed!!! finished all the best i could, headed to christine's for a "party" and got ready for tuesday.

tuesday, woke up at 5:30 in the damn morning. drove the yellow pain in the ass for an hour, then christine took over. ran out of gas with a 1/4 tank left on the gauge. good times. going up highway 40, truck had check engine light go on, and computer cut ALLL power from the engine. going up a mountain at 10 mph sucks balls of herd of cows. freaked out. got codes cleared in flagstaff and were on our way. last two hours lisa drove. after an 18 hour day, lisa pulls up in the truck and swears that she would never ride in that thing again. thanks for the help.

wednesday, fairly uneventful. drove for 7 out of 11 hours in the truck. stopped in amarillo, texas. got $2 sweats from old navy. got to tulsa at around 9:30 pm. got out of the truck and it was like walking into a sauna. slept on floor in empty house. surprised not dead like horror movie.

thursday, day of sweating. brian (me) got to unload full truck. sweat sweat sweat. possible hernia. so much sweat. humidity possibly sucks more than aforementioned 10 mph mountain climb, jury still out. after all things off truck and into house, went to "rib crib." very good barbequed ribs. so many ribs. went back to house and slept from 4-11pm. woke up, watched movie with christine, went to bed.

friday, nothing much happened. just went driving around tulsa. nothing too exciting. caught fireflies though. lightning bugs kick ass.

saturday, fly day. left tulsa in a thunderstorm and headed for phoenix en route to ontario. flight to phoenix was very very bumpy. christine and i didn't get to sit together, i think that bothered her. people were very scared on the plane. my theory was that as long as i saw two wings, we were ok. we were ok. in phoenix, we made $400 by giving up our seats on an overbooked flight. we waited an extra hour with priority seating. not too shabby.

sunday, father's day. should be sadder. getting pretty damn good at keeping it all in. i miss my dad, he missed my graduations. went to dinner at mccormick's. it was good, tomorrow waking up at 5am to drop off christine's mom at airport. found out for sure that all classes were passed. dun dun dun dun dun. dee-ewe-en....DUN!!!!!!!!!!

got a reprieve. am able to turn labs in on monday. i hope that's enough time. no sleep once again last night. i better pass all my classes. everyone keeps congratulating me about graduating ( if i do) but i'm still unemployed. can't wait for the days of not studying.

so much stuff. 4, count'em 4 interviews this week. plus labs. plus projects. plus finals. i'll probably be dead before i can enjoy being alive again.

hopefully this will be my final finals week. thank God. i just need to get everything done. i wasn't able to finish that machine design project, despite staying up all night working on it. sucks that we met only during the last week of class. oh well, no sweat off my sack. wish me luck people. i need to find a job.

doesn't look like i got that job in valencia. oh well. their loss. right. last day to finish machine design project. sucks that i'm the only one who know how to use cad. lots of work. tired. can't wait till graduation. stressin' much now.

had an interview on thursday. went in my usual happy go lucky self. maybe i shouldn't have. found out that i had a 50/50 chance of getting a job. the h.r. guy said that they would be making offers on friday or the next business day. i never got a call. doesn't look to good right now. i've come to the point that if a job posting even mentions the phrase "mech" i'll send them a resume. lan graduated today. i'm jealous. she get's a new life. i'm not complaining about my life at all, it's just that new stuff is cool. two more weeks, then it's all about the beer and ps2.


p.s.

i'm sad that my dad won't be able to watch me graduate. i know i don't show it as much, but i really do miss him. not a day goes by that i don't think about him. it gets me sad to think of how much i was an ass when i was younger. i realize now that i didn't know everything.

every day, the older i get, the wiser he was.

so sleepy, waking up in 4 hours, can't sleep though. tomorrow is going to suck fat hairy balls.

midterm tomorrow, interview right after. interview thursday. need a job. must get job. want to drink like a fish. cannot. sucks. must study. want to golf and fish and sleep. can't wait to be done. oh, got my grad check. it's a go for a degree if i pass all my classes. must pass all my classes. must pass all my classes. must pass all my classes. must pass all my classes. must pas all my classes. must pass all my classes.

really coming down to wire. looks like i may be taking a trip to tulsa this summer. i'm so glad that my computer is finally fixed. got really annoyed yesterday at everyone. i hate stupid people. had to deal with them all weekend long. i really can't wait for graduation, and having weekends for myself.

mother's day '04: hit up big bear lake. spent 8 hours on the lake and did not catch a damn thing with power bait or worms. switched over to trolling. my mom and christine caught 4 fish between them. my mom caught a big ass trout. was 20" long and weighed over 3lbs. three of the trout were holdovers with very pink salmon-like meat. yuuuuuummmmmmmmy.
love that corolla, 30mpg and loving it. i do miss that v8 burble, but not missing the $40 tank o'gas. $40 is 120 taco tuesday tacos. so lazy, but cannot. i really need to light a fire under my butt. all i want to do is go fishing and play with ps2. i really hope i don't get a job until july or august. i just wanna be stoopid for a couple of weeks. go lakers. i knew the spurs were going to choke, fish killed their hopes of going back-to-back. ha. the beginning of a new dynasty. cool thing happened yesterday morning: i woke up groggy and my eyes half open, then i started looking for my glasses, i thought, "silly me." then i opened my eyes. i really miss my dad. with all that's been going on in LL, it's made all of the memories so vivid. i feel sad that i've learned so much and matured so much, but i will never get the chance to show him the man that i'm becoming.

got a rejection letter today from one of the companies i interviewed with. i have a feeling the floodgates are just opening. corolla is mostly fixed, still a bit spongy. i forgot how much i enjoyed driving that car. even though it doesn't have any luxury items/power/technology, it's still a great car. i think i'll take my mom fishing for mom's day. all i want is one fish, just to make the day worth it. of course it's going one hell of an expensive fish, but i've been skunked for the last few trips. catfish are coming soon to socal lakes. mmm mmmm.

corolla needs to be fixed, but like always, no time. did ok on midterm for one of my classes. kinda worried about ece. will try harder to make it. really want to head to mammoth to go fishing, but no time/money/skill(ha ha). i still need to catch a fish with john around, to prove i can catch something. oh well, take care, fish on.

it's been busy with interviews, got two more this week, maybe more depending on callbacks. still haven't figured out where i'm going to live after graduation. worries me a little. senioritis is really kicking my butt right now. can't wait to be done, but if no work gets done, will not graduate. catch 22 sucks.

midterm went okay. just waiting for all the evils to start this weekend. bummed about the lakers losing. sucks what happened to that officer in pomona. this week is finally over. only 6 more untill I really start to go crazy. don't y'all miss out. soooo sleepy. get some rest, it's late dontcha know

here's the monthly post.

looks like this is end of it. i'm glad to see companies interviewing. i hope i can get offered a job now and start in september, so i can have some time off. we all need to rest, don't we? really need to go fishing, but no time. no time, never any time. cat's opening a store. the link is on the side. help her out, she's cool.

been a while once again. I'm going to fail one of my classes. I have to keep going though. I've done my best, and this qtr has just been hellacious. I need to realize to live for myself. If I do that, then all the externals pressures are alleviated. Take care of yourselves out there, it's a big scary world.

ok, it's been over a month, sue me. wait, that may happen soon. got int an accident the other day. i'm falling behind in school. haven't been doing much at work either. scared, freaked out, stressed. happy valentine's day all.

ok,ok, i know that i've taken a while to write here. is there an excuse? not really. just been working my tail off between school and work. so there. that's why. i have to go watch a movie now, but i promise i'll start writing once again.

been a while, sorry to keep everyone waiting. watched the lakers lose on christmas day. after that, we went home, and a car chase ended about two houses down from mine. then i got to paint. oh boy!! the kitchen now has so much white in it, i think i've been blinded by a flash-bang grenade. need sunglasses just to use the microwave. since that, nothing much. but that's how we like it. maybe go to auto show on monday. don't want to go to school, but whatcha gonna do?

remember all that evil hard work and sleepless nights? it all paid off, finally. 3.6 this qtr. good times again. now i'm on break. i hope to do as little thinking as possible. crazy how important sleep is, it seems to put me in a better mood. tomorrow is christmas. let's hope someone remembers why we have have this holyday.

vegas was fun. played much pai gow poker. greatest casino game. blackjack blows. lost a little bit, but that's how you have to approach vegas. don't ever expect to win. just set a limit to how much you are willing to lose, then stop when that's gone. tomorrow is the last day of work for the rest of the year. gonna be there till ten probably. feels good to be able to do stuff for myself and not have to worry about anything else but work. i think life will be better once i'm done with school.


brett favre played today, the day after his dad died of a heart attack. i have much respect for that man. he plays ball like a little kid, understanding that he's getting paid to play a game. everyone on the field respects him for not only his skills, but his ethic as well. my sympathies go out to him and his family.

too much work, so little fun. hopefully that will go away this weekend. heading to vegas for a wedding. not one of those weddings, a real one at a church, not a chapel. i've been so busy, i haven't really had time to enjoy life. sometimes i fell like there's not much to enjoy. i've been really irritable recently. that sucks for all those around me. christmas is almost here. i wish people would care more about Jesus than presents. i think i'm depressed